My sexy, amazing, loving, and loyal Batman;
I
finally got your letters!!! (this is saved from what I wrote Tuesday) I
worry about you, my love. I am aching over here in stupid Texas while
you are in stupid Colorado. I did think the joke you told about the
boys never going to a 'scared straight' program was funny...:) I was
thinking the same thing!!
the boys are having a blast with my parents
and sisters. And we just got some stunningly amazing and terrifying
news today.....(exhusband) is officially offered the job in Turkey. Holy.
Crap. He is drafting his resignation letter today for his old firm, and
he starts at the new company July 15th. I don't know if that means he
flies to Turkey in a couple weeks or if it means he is trained stateside
for a few months first....I am so scared about the school year. I will
be a single mom for real.....I can't rely on him for anything. Not
laundry, taking kids to school/picking them up, watching them while I go
to karaoke....cub scouts....oh man. i have spent that last few hours
nearly engulfed in anxiety.
***************************************this
is where i went to the bathroom and had my episode of excrutiating
pain****then you called and made me feel better a little************i
love you so fucking much*********************
I cannot wait to
get your poem and all of your words in tangible form. You are in my
heart always and on my mind incessantly. I ended up not going to
karaoke tonight because I just wanted to snuggle with your pillow and
enjoy the naughty tingles in my girly bits. It made me really wish I
could derive pleasure from self stimulation and I tried - I tried SOOOO
hard! *sigh* I wish you were home. So we could be intimate together.
We could lie in bed and listen to the fan. Listen to the rain outside
the window. Know we are safe in each others' arms. I can hear your
heart beating and the air moving in and out of your lungs. I can feel
you kiss the top of my head. And brush my hair away from my ear with
your fingers. This is what I imagine when I am falling asleep. I also,
of course, imagine that while we are snuggling and all that....that I
have my hand casually stroking you. Exposing and hiding your head that
is freshly coated in delicious moisture. Your gasp of excitement dances
in my ears.....oh my baby i miss you and your sex. rocking my hips
back and forth on you is just another highlight to the love we share. a
physical manifestation of our closeness and our bond. i love you,
nathan wells. i love you and everything you are. every moment of the
broken road you've traveled has led you to me, and every moment of my
broken road has led me to you. haha rascal flatts has a song about
that. :) called the broken road. too bad you're not a country
fan....some lyrics:
every long lost dream/led me to where you
are/others who broke my heart / they were like northern stars / pointing
me on my way / into your loving arms / this much i know is true / god
blessed the broken road that led me straight to you / i think about the
years i spent / just passing through / i'd like to have the time i lost /
and give it back to you / but you just smile and take my hand / you've
been there, you understand / it's all part of a grander plan that is
coming true.
I am nearly to the end of my page. :( this makes me
sad, but i am also a little relieved. because it is nearly 2am. i've
been suffering writer's block because of this stupid pelvic pain. the
doc says i don't have any signs of illness but it putting me on an
antibiotic anyway. he seems to think it's a uterine infection....and
has me on doxycycline. which is used for STDs. which pisses me off,
because all my tests came back negative (i am not a whore dumbass doc).
My suspicion is that my IUD slipped or moved a bit when I was using the
bathroom (rare, but happens) or I have diverticulitis (a weakening in
my intestinal wall causing a pocket to form). I still hurt a little,
but the pain diminishes by the day.
I am counting the minutes
until you are home to me, my love. i don't believe you did what you are
accused of. you are a better man that that - even if you weren't way
back when, you are now. And that is all I care about. I know that you
would never hurt me and never hurt the boys. I know that your love is
true. I hope and pray that you know I am yours with all of my heart and
my soul. You have helped me in so many ways, my love. so many ways. I
adore you and look at your pictures daily...you keep me smiling even
when i am down. because you are you - and you are honest and truly the
man of my dreams.
Much love and Harlequin Kisses to you....I saw an
awesome design the other day I want to sketch out and send to you as a
tattoo idea - it's the Bat Symbol from the Arkham Asylum video game, but
instead of a black bat...its a black and white checkered harlequin
pattern.....with HARLEY in the bat symbol instead of BATMAN (see pic -
bad pic but you can draw it better). hehehe I also ordered a bat
symbol decal for my car window....as well as an arkham one....and a
Harley and Batman chibi charm so I can make us into a necklace for me.
<3 oh my sweet bat-ger....my honey bat-ger.....i love you i love you i
love you. be well...!!
love always;
your harlequin girl
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