I have really fallen behind with the posting. Partly because Batsy is more accessible by phone now than letters, but also partly because I was pissed off at Blogger for eating a huge post I made in early September. Pictures and all. GROWL.
I hear from my Batsy every day now. Sometimes less than I would like....I try to let him contact me because he has a full time job and a strict schedule and I don't want to interrupt anything. Or call at the wrong time. I simply don't want him being set back because of me. I want him home just as soon as he possibly can be.
Since I last posted, I have been through a lot. I got fired for, in my opinion, a bullshit reason. I was denied unemployment. And I have had to fall back on the estranged husband for monetary gifts. He is more than generous. I just feel like a leech. Doesn't help that my mother called me out as a leech to the estranged husband just yesterday. After spending the last month applauding me for being a stay at home mother. she's a class act, i tell ya. It's amazing I am who I am. But she was such a horrible mother that I made it my duty to never ever become like her. She had some good attributes - schedules and clean house and the like. But I was never loved. Never accepted. Always looked down upon and ridiculed. Ah well - my boys don't have to deal with that. They will have a stable home life, full of love and acceptance and happiness. Not so much clean house - like I said, I don't want to be like her at all. LMFAO *sigh* nah, I am just lazy.
Hey look. I am a cute kid. :)
Anyway, so I am going to have to write more later. Being a good mom means taking the kids to the museum once a month to gawk at dinosaurs. yay! Be good, y'all.
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